I have insomnia, it has been diagnosed….

I just can’t seem to sleep.
I can’t go to sleep,
I can’t stay asleep and
I’m ALWAYS tired!

 I asked my shrink for a sleep aid, well hardly my shrink because she never talks to me or asks me anything other than how are the pills working?

I try to tell her I still have mild panic attacks which raise my blood pressure, that I’m so tired all the time I can’t function yet I still have trouble going to sleep.  That I hurt everywhere and I’m dizzy and confused.



– She no listen, she say –

“Here is another refill, I’ll see you in three months this time”-


Finally I was getting back to the point where I just didn’t want to do this anymore. So I looked up side effects of my sleep medication and after three months, I quite cold turkey!

 I mean REALLY?

I have hypertension but I can usually maintain at mid stage one. Over the last four weeks since I saw her last and she urged me to take the sleep med EVERY NIGHT…

My blood pressure has risen well over 20 points and has been as high as 203 / 115 and averages 189 / 106. I can’t think, my head hurts, and I just feel just plain bad!

 My medication can raise blood pressure.


 I have been diagnosised with pancreatitis.

The med can cause pancreatitis.


 Because I have pancreatitis, doctors have assured me I will develop Type II diabetes.

The med can raise blood sugar.


My cholesterol and triglycerides are high.

This med can raise bad cholesterol and lower good cholesterol.


I’m dizzy and confused and have vertigo. Of course that just might be old age…


guess what this med can cause too?


Now I’m not saying I have all these conditions because of my “sleep” medication, I was already diagnosed with everything but an excess of confusion and vertigo

but hell I am old!

 However, I’m really hoping that my blood pressure goes down now that I’m refusing to take this stuff.   Oh and guess what? Although often given to help with sleep, the main reason for this medication is to treat bipolar condition. I may be bipolar but the potential side effects of this particular med should, in my non professional opinion, have never allowed it to be prescribed to me.

Besides, none of the professionals I’ve seen over the last few months have every actually said to me…”I think you’re Bipolar”  They hinted at it I must admit…”Are you permiscous?”…At my Age!…”Do you shop alot?…Isn’t that learned behaviour!…”Do you gamble?…No I grew up in Vegas…

Stuff like that but never…”We think you’re bipolar and will treat you for that.”

I’ve left instructions for my family that if I stroke in the next few weeks, to sue her for medical neglect.

 I told her I went off that med and why but I still wanted something for sleep and ONLY sleep and she wants to give me Ambien….

Oh Sleep Driving Here We Come!

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