It is a long and eventful afternoon and I’m going out of my mind.  My counselor agrees we should change to mecication management only but now my whole care needs to be transferred back to my HMO, which one year ago told me they wouldn’t see me and made arrangements for me to go back to this facility.

I’m crying and feeling hung out to dry again.  I know I’m less volitile now a year later but I’m afraid.  I hate where I’m at but am terrified of going backwards.

I want a Marguirta and some chips and to just forget this afternoon.

I hate everything and feel no happiness.  What that mean dru, what that mean?